I Lost My Cards
I usually don’t take my Goddess Oracle cards out of my apartment. In fact, I can’t remember the last time I took them out with me. But Tuesday, I popped them into a bag, met with a friend, gave a goddess reading, and by the time I got home, I discovered that I was sans cards. Emails to Lothian Buses lost property and phone calls to the cafe resulted in nothing, and the emotions began to sweep in.
Guilt. Abandonment. Self-recrimination. Betrayal. Embarrassment.
And then acceptance. Always last to the party, but all the more welcome for its tardiness.
With acceptance, I realised that I hadn’t been abandoned by the goddess. That everything happens as it should. That I had been giving away my power to the cards. That I speak to the goddesses all the time, and that, while the cards were a great tool to familiarise myself with the shape, texture, flavour, perfume of each individual goddess’ energy and story, I don’t need them. That I’ve been lovingly persuaded(!) to release my belief in my dependence.
So the question that I’m being drawn to ask, of both myself and of you, my lovely, is where else am I giving away my power?
4 Comments
Suddenly Jamie
Perhaps the cards have their own journey to make. Perhaps there is someone else out there who is meant to find them. The Goddess’ intentions are not always clear. The path, not always straight.
Maybe it’s time for you to meet a new deck, or make one?
Maybe it’s time for you to, as you said, acknowledge your independence.
Sounds like an interesting mystery to me.
Sounds like the start of a story …
Suzanne van Vliet
So someone else needed the Goddess too! What a great way to find her. Will you be buying new ones?
Amy
I actually haven’t decided whether I’ll replace them or not. I’m definitely going to create some space without the cards and see what happens. Perhaps after that when I no longer feel reliant on them so much…
Nicole~
What an amazing turn of luck. Of course you don’t need those cards. But I do hope you find them again. They are pulsing with your energy. But if you do get them back I can see how you will use them differently. I hate that sting of losing something before I thought I was ready to give it up. That part totally sucks!