Meeting Minerva – A Guest Post From Lokantina

This guest post by Lokantina is part of a series celebrating the My Word Goddess Readings by honouring the gifts of the goddesses that stepped forward in 2014….

When Minerva’s beautiful owl flew towards me and alighted on my shoulder at the beginning of the year, I was a little unsure. I knew Owl medicine very well but had limited experience of connecting with Minerva. My understanding of her was of a Mighty Warrior and a Goddess of War. I didn’t have the heart or the strength or the energy or the desire for a full year of war and I wanted to let her bird fly free and leave me. I had been battle scarred, bloodied and beaten way too often and was Really up for a year of deep peace rather than any More conflict.

This year, the Grace (my word for the year) of surrendering and diving into the totality of Everything that showed up and was offered was such a deep sacred gift. I have felt held by this quality and bathed in Divine Love and I have known that whatever I have faced, absolutely Everything is ok, no matter how it looks, sounds like or feels.

The stance of the Goddess is with the weight on the back foot and arms open wide and indeed life has come and offered her abundant gifts to me so very much and I have accepted All the gifts with humble gratitude.

I had no idea at the beginning of the year what this quest meant for me and where this would take me. However, almost immediately, I felt this vibration leading me to step off the cliff into the abyss and let the entire mystery unfold. My visual for that moment was like in one of the Indiana Jones films where he has to step forward with courage and there is No path there for his eyes to see but he has to Trust and indeed there is a path that unfolds over the chasm.

Everything this year has been about surrender and trust and as I was initiated deeper into the Void and the Great Mystery. Throughout, life just kept presenting me opportunities over and over again as the most perfect next piece of the jigsaw without any effort or struggle at all.

For a while I actually welcomed donning all Minerva’s armour and protection. Then I howled with laughter at the armour as it was Much more resonant one of my nicknames “Loki”, God(dess) of mischief and mayhem! It brought a Lot of rebellion and helped me completely Destroy the ‘Good Girl’ archetype and step into my own sovereignty and accept All that I am.

While the armour helped at first, it was the de-armouring process over the year where I found my strength and my truth. I used to think to be strong I had to be somewhat masculine in my approach. It is actually in my Incredible feminine softness and my complete vulnerability that I am at my most powerful, real and beautiful. I spent the year shedding Everything!

This year’s dance with this Goddess has been Full out to put it mildly and I am smashed and exhausted. I have Never dived so completely into the deep deep shadow of my soul. I have never worked so tirelessly and tenaciously on myself. I have never faced So much, So Full on. I sometimes thought I’d Never climb out of the well of unimaginable sorrow and grief and pain that showed up and I would drown in the tears. Minerva was there and supported Everything. She kept whispering “this too will end”.

What happened on this Quest was that after 40 years, I Finally Finally Finally made peace with myself!!!! I let go of my incredibly deep, toxic, destructive self-hatred and fell Deeply in love with this AMAZING, Magnificent, Stunning, Powerful, Sensual, Vibrant, Radiant being that I AM. It was so Worth the long wait to come home to myself and to meet myself in all the raw, messy, wild glorious truth. The celebration of all of this cumulated in a Boudoir Photo shoot which was so empowering and very important for me. I sobbed and sobbed in shock and awe when I viewed the images as if Finally seeing myself for the very first time.

I give such deep thanks to Minerva. Right now I am at PEACE with Every fragment and aspect of my Crazy, Messed up, Weird, Wild, Wonderful, Bonkers, Sensitive, Creative, Deeply Spiritual, Loving, Magnificent beauty – the FULL Entire Radiant Rainbow.

Although part of me wants to now dive into a cave and rest and sleep for about a million years, the other part knows this dance is only a stepping stone to the next adventure and I am excited!

Thank you Amy for All your support and facilitating the space for me to connect to the beautiful Goddess energies and therefore the Incredible Goddess I AM. Bowing to each and Every soul on this courageous path with my wide open heart.

Lokantina is an unleashed, boundless, sparkly, playful, joyful, loving, open, rascally, mischievous wilding! She is a Walk-in soul, deeply feminine Goddess, earthy wise woman Shamana, healer, lightworker, pathfinder, meditator, yogini, sensualist, lover, dancer and now dance teacher, creatrix, writer, photographer, lover of poetry and music, foodie, traveller, explorer, true friend, eternal romantic and complete optimist. Plus So very much more…

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