Loving the questions…

It’s later in the day than I had intended to write this post. And I guess that’s how it will be sometimes. When you make a commitment to show up for your work in this kind of way, you sometimes have to accept that it won’t necessarily fall into the schedule you had planned. The important thing is that you continue to choose to show up. And so here I am, having made that choice, showing up…

The reason for the slippery nature of my schedule is that today is the day that the regular Goddess Guidance readings are sent out for the month. Usually they go out on the 1st of the month, but in January they are sent on the 2nd to take account of New Year’s Day. Hogmanay (Scotland’s New Year’s Eve celebrations) tends to be a big deal here, and so it’s always best to leave sometime for recovery, I find. So yes, today was the day to send out the readings – and I had extra material that I wanted to include along with the readings, which ended up taking me a little longer than I thought.

When I began doing these readings back in 2011, I used to offer them on a weekly basis in a secret FaceBook group. Until I realised that the work schedule and demand that I had created was simply unsustainable. So, I offered them instead on the first of the month, and I sent them out via FaceBook messenger along with a FaceBook group for weekly group readings and general goddess-related sharings. The readings then were much simpler in their delivery, although the content was still super-juicy. But after a while, I just felt as though there was something missing. But I couldn’t quite figure out what it was.

So I learned to love the questions.

Rainer Maria Rilke once said…

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
~ Rainer Maria Rilke

And so this is my practice. To love the questions, live the questions, until, one day, I find that I have lived into the answers. Which is precisely what has happened with these goddess readings.

I started to play with the format of the readings, placing them into a separate pdf with a beautiful opening letter and some of my own photographs. And then, I decided to add in a group oracle reading. And then the following month, I added in a Q&A section. This month, I have included a full moon Celtic Tree calendar interpretation with journal prompts. So that now, the monthly goddess readings are set within a small e-zine, each personalised with the goddess of the month that has stepped forward as each kindred circle sister’s guide.

In this way, the readings feel as though they have been placed within a richer, lusher context to provide nourishment, pleasure, insight, support, and fortification. As I sit with these January readings landing in inboxes all over the globe, I feel deeply sated in myself and in what I have offered. I know that what I have provided is good and beautiful and true. I know that it will be well met by my Goddess Guidance sisters. I know that I have valued my work and that this is now reflected in the form through which I have delivered them.

So when I sit and reflect upon the journey these readings have taken me on these last 6 years, it is only then that I realised I have met that distant day, and that I have indeed lived into the answer. It is then that I see I have, in fact, been honing my craft all along….

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