Self-Care
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A Path to Wellness
3 weeks ago I woke up with a pain in my abdomen. A sharp pain that stole my breath and fought my every move. And I did what I always do when faced with pain. I ignored it. I carried on with what I’d said I would do. I commuted, had meetings, client sessions, family commitments, housework and all the rest. Until I couldn’t. I shifted from ignoring the pain to denying it. It’s not so bad, I told my beloved. I told myself. The last time I went to the doctor was over a decade ago. I don’t get sick, I protested. When I finally relented, I was really…
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Because Sometime You Just Need To Sleep
Bone deep weariness trickles through my whole body like honey. Flesh lies heavy and muscle turns to water. The world begins to take on a different aspect through these tired eyes – edges softened, borders blurred, lights dimmed… Because sometimes you just need to sleep. And sometimes you just need to let yourself sleep. When we resist rest, we deny ourselves the chance to refill our well… we deny ourselves the chance to dream. Today, promise me this. Promise me that when you’re tired, you’ll rest. If it means that you have to say no, that you have to postpone, that you have to make alternative arrangements… do what you…
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A Writer Who’s Not Writing
Is there any pain quite so poignant as the experience of not doing what you feel in your bones you were born to do? For the last month I’ve been so preoccupied with teaching a short course at university and trying to keep on top of my business commitments, that my writing practice has slipped. And yes, I tell myself that it’s ok. That these things happen. That sometimes life gets in the way. That all of life is a cycle and that my writing practice will return. Nothing is ever truly lost… But that doesn’t lessen the tug I’ve felt on my heart, or soothe the ruffled feathers of…
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Introducing My Inner Critic
If I were to picture my inner critic, she would probably look a lot like this. The cool fixed gaze. The stark contrast between light and dark, black and white – no shades of grey here…. The set of the chin. The drawing down of the brow. The straight nose. The pressed lips. I imagine that her name is Rosamond, and that she is invested in the upholding of the ingrained Scottish Protestant work ethic which dogs my waking hours. She tells me to “haud my wheesht”* when I want to complain about something. Rosamond doesn’t have time for those who whinge and whine. She tells me to “get oan…
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Hip Stories
I have hurt my hip. And it’s not for the first time. When I was pregnant with my third and final baby I developed issues with my right hip. 3 pregnancies in under 4 years had resulted in an excess of relaxin – a hormone that loosens up your joints to allow the baby to pass through your pelvis. It was painful at the time, and I had physiotherapy after he had made his appearance, which seemed to sort out the majority of my aches & pains. But the truth is that walking distances, especially when I’m in a hurry, causes it to act up. Cut to Wednesday. That third…